The Resource Of Self

The light in my heart is what gives me purpose, as it echoes through the endless space of all that is wild.

This afternoon as I was running up a rocky hill through the desert to escape the obscurities of my mind’s absurdities, I felt something rousing inside me as my pulse pounded with relentless perseverance.  The sun sat situated at its most potent point in the afternoon sky.  

My back, my chest, my shoulders, all burning, scorched from said sun.  The tingling upon my skin soaked through into the deepest depths of me.  It set my soul ablaze, and the bliss from it all left me shivering. 


It was an energy from the purest resource of self.  It was when I started to fully believe in myself that I knew.  I knew that I could do whatever I put my mind to.  

Even with something unknown pulling the strings to motivate me.  I can only put my focus on the finish line.  Though, I feel something opening up inside of me, prying at the gateway of my mind.    

I take a breather while gulping water down by the half gallon, the sweat from my pores cools the blistering sensation. I resign from trying so hard to wrap my head around the paradoxical mind-altering thoughts that arise on these day’s when I was seemingly alone.  

I decide that rather than wander around in problem solving mode all day, overthinking every little scenario in what way I should fix about myself and my life, I should rather just pause for a few moments and bask in the light of what’s not broken.  That being my soul.

Something lit up within me as my heartbeat found a bit of resolve in its consistent rhythm.  The pain from my burnt skin subsides.  I feel as though I have been rewired with a celestial version of my true self.  I feel a sense of inner peace, an internal balance and most of all, a blissful love for myself.   


Once these feelings start to take over, it is easier to become more in tune with the better version of yourself.   It becomes easier to take on the empowering posture of making those enhanced life choices that make such a difference in our lives, all the while following through with the actions that support what matters most, that being universal love.

My heart as it pounds pure, twists my thoughts into a place of positivity where they belong.  The negativity that surrounded me just moments ago vanishes like the fart I just let go into the wind.


The light in my heart is what gives me purpose, as it echoes through the endless space of all that is wild.  The wilderness sitting upon the backdrop of this desert, the stars hiding above, a river’s offshoot that trickles into a conscious stream—all of these things I feel as is I am one with.          

See, we are all extensions of a mystical and resourceful energy.  I believe this because we are all able to reflect this source within ourselves, therefore, we are all part of this energy, or shall I say, God’s energy. 

This energy it translates itself within the mind as revolutionary ideas, unseen synchronicities, and an unsurpassable intuition.  These intuitive feelings exert their influence upon our optimism for the betterment of ourselves and for humanity. With things such as love, unity, and oneness.  The awareness of this intuition occurs rapidly when the mind is open and receptive to receive.  


When the mind is open and present in the now—it finds itself at peace—instead of being preoccupied with the negativity of all the ego-related opinions of our past and/or future circumstances.  The mind thrives with reception of positive energy.  It evolves with the mystical experience of life.  At its core, this energy is the purest resource of our true self.  It’s God’s love. It’s where we are happiest.  It’s a perpetual state of bliss.  

But if we find ourselves creating scenarios for anything other than moment in which we are in, the mind will work its way back towards the void of negativity.  When your mental focus falls into this sort of trap, these negative thoughts, they will destroy you.  But the more you create these negative thoughts, the more negative emotions come bubbling up to the surface, and flows through all that you do.

This will carry you so far away from aligning with your truest self.  All the while slowing down the process of creating consistent awareness and happiness.  So one must be wise to try and remain in a balanced posture of all that is positive—think of a cross, if you would—no matter the negative externalities that try their hands at unbalancing your true alignment.


When you allow this energy to flow through you with the conductive element called positivity, you will become love and light yourself.  The power of positive energy alone creates harmony within your soul.  As harmony within, is vital to allowing us to see through all the external trivialities, as the essence of the soul’s vitality becomes immeasurable and its light will not be stolen by anyone. 

When running in stride with self-love and harmony side by side, it’s impossible to not feel the positive energy flow through you. And those that see you won’t be able to help but wonder what sort of magic it is that you have hiding within you.  It only seems like this to the wandering eye because it is experienced by so few.  But in reality it isn’t magic at all.  But it is available cost-free to every last individual being. 

This positive energy encompasses us all, as well as it’s within us all.  Because at its source it is universal love, it is light, it is the Creator of you, directing His energy upon you and your soul.  All you must do is properly align yourself within the light of all that is positive in your life.  

However you have to do that is up to you, as everyone’s version of happiness is different.  But be careful not to misalign yourself in the process, as it is misalignment that often leaves the heart and soul broken in half and the mind hell bent on destroying everything in the wake of its path.


What the soul is, in my opinion, is but a stick—a fragile twig—broken in half by the separate entities within ourselves that pull us apart from both the inside out, and the outside in throughout our lives.

It is not easily recognized to the naked eye.  Yet when the fragments of our soul merges back into one sentient being by becoming aware of our own dual nature.  It is then that we must make sure that our soul, or twig is tied tight with the ribbon of love and light, so that the two separate entities within ourselves become wrapped in the beauty of One. 

The core value to be learned from this post; is that when the dual nature of our self becomes intertwined with what it truly is, the attraction of opposites, or duality fused back together as One.  Consider it the yin to the yang if you will.  

But in being aware of our dual nature is one of the most vital attributes to the essence of our true being.  It is this awareness that allows us to truly love ourselves by giving in to the glowing light within. 


See, we are all wildly drawn to the light of those whose knots are tied strong with the awareness of their own duality and the love they radiate.  The soul—or twig if you like—that has tied itself together with its own accord will eventually form these bundles, tied together with the ribbons of love from another whole soul, and they will create an expounding energy exploding with universal love.

But before we can do this, we must learn to reflect the light within our own hearts from the resource of our truest self, from the love burning within.  This is the only way to deflect the discernment of the negativity and darkness in our minds that too often spins us around, sending in the wrong direction. 

I pick up my pace, the sunlight shining through me now.  I feel something grabbing at my feet.   Maybe it’s the darkness.  Who knows?  So I run faster, my knees almost pounding into my chest, and then the darkness is gone. 

I see a mound, a grave of sorts, built with the sole purpose of burying the past.   Above it is a cross with a simple inscription that says “that which revolves must evolve.”

And I think perhaps, when one finds themselves stuck in a revolving loop, maybe one should just try going straight instead.

Until the next time.

—Ryan Love

Author: Be Love

My roots are buried in the Dirty South. I grew up learning the importance of God and Southern Charm. I began writing in my late teens mostly through heartbreak and music. I moved out west 15 years ago and live right around the corner from the Fountain Of Youth. Most people refer to it as Lake Tahoe. I play Chef during the day and search for ways to save the world by night, through reading, writing, and believing. I enjoy the side of life that is less abrasive. I look forward to joining you on my quest through Spiritual Sobriety with the Promised Land as our ultimate destination.

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