This morning I woke up and finally understood what I thought was arduous to understand. Progress. It is the most industrious word in the English language. There is nothing that can undermine the very definition of the word progress. The moment one decides to take a seat and deny progress the chance at defining itself, one should just go ahead and accept expiration’s invitation, so to shorten the pursuit of Paradise. So without further adieu.
For with the heart one believes and is justified, and with the mouth one confesses and is saved.
Romans 10 : 10
It is in the purpose of this prayer that I look to find an expansion in my personal realization of Your love, and in the awareness of You that in light of my negativity that I find the positive side of myself. It is as well in Your purpose that through this prayer I hope will lead to a further exploration and the discovery of a new dimension in freedom, illumination, and most of all love. So please allow me to deepen the awareness of my life through You.
Through the experience of struggle I must now empty myself—I must let go of everything that makes up the old me and hope for full recovery in the grace of You. Your grace it brings inner peace to us all. It is through the resurrection of Your Son within me, that I hope to practice a newfangled method of mending my mentality—it is my hope that these methods shall take hold and transform this little life of mine.
It is in the personal awareness of You that the “mystical” experience of Your wisdom gives way to a self-renunciation of sorts, in which I see the silhouette of commitment walking closely by. This commitment I now understand should be demonstrated at the highest level—way beyond the vagueness of intellectual assent and external obedience.
It is true that he, who looks to act and do “good works” for others of this world, must deepen his own self-understanding, freedom, integrity, and his own capacity to love, before he will truly be able to offer anyone anything.
He must come to grips with the deeper understanding of who he really is, and while I feel I am really close, it is possible that I may never know who I truly am. But with You at my side and in the depths of this prayer I feel something click within more than ever.
And while I feel that I have dissolved the boundaries of what rests within me to become more whole in the Presence of You. We both know that more demons, are lining up, waiting there turn at trying to penetrate my soul, and bringing with them pain and suffering.
But with You in my heart, I have all the confidence in the world that the strength You give to me is all that I shall need to nurture these seeds You have planted within and all around me. So as I walk away towards today—I thank You for the light of Your positivity and I look forward to seeing You in everything that I do and all that is taking root.